Last weekend I was at a bar with my friends in NYC drinking around midnight. Thinking back to the last moments I remember, I had not drank an unusual amount of alcohol and even though I was intoxicated, I was nowhere close to out of control or blackout drunk. The last thing I remember is leaving the bar on my own, feeling slightly confused and then I blacked out.

When I came to I was woken up on the floor of a subway station without my phone or wallet. It was several hours later and I had no recollection of what happened since I had left the bar. At first I figured I passed out from drinking but reflecting on what happened that night it seems highly unlikely that the amount I drank could correspond to the level of unconsciousness and memory loss I had experienced. Im still trying to piece together any significant events I remember from that night but after waking up incredibly dazed without my possessions I believe it was the effect of a drugging.

Its creepy to think that I had no control and could blackout so hard without knowing what happened at all. I am thankful nothing too terrible happened and will be very attentive to make sure nothing is put in a drink of mine again.

 Lucky, from New York…

Jones had told me a long time ago that out of all the women in Baker he wanted My Wife the most. My Wife is completely loyal to me and would not even give those guys the time of day, this made them angry.

Patrick Jones and Kelly Johnson were staying with me and my wife on College Street in Baker Oregon. We had no idea they what they were secretly drug raping women at the time. One night Jones had a party of all men going, I was home in bed and did not go to work that night and Jones did know I was still home. My Wife came into our bedroom with a drink someone gave her and I wanted to make sure it was not drugged so I took a tiny sip and gave it back to her thinking it was not drugged since it tasted fine. She laid in bed with me after drinking some of it.

I woke up extremely drugged and I figured it had to be that tiny sip of My Wife's drink that did it. I heard Jones say welcome back to My Wife from the kitchen right outside our bedroom. My Wife was not with me in bed anymore so I walked into the kitchen. I saw My Wife was very drugged and I said are you were partying without me? But she could not talk or move on her own, she just stood there with a blank face and her eyes were fully dilated. Jones and Danny Little were with her and I asked them if they drugged us so they could rape us. Danny Little said we are not raping you, but we are raping her. Then Jones told Danny "Take her in there". Then Danny guided My Wife in to the front room. Then Jones got right in my face and and told me they all have been gang raping her using a drug to block her memory. I asked him what the drug was and he opened the fridge and pulled out a small clear bottle with a rubber top and a yellow label with black letters that said Ketaset (a brand of Ketamine) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ketamine .

Ketamine is a Federally banned narcotic used to rape, lasts two hours and the victim has no memory of anything just like you were sound asleep. Then Jones said "If you ever tell the cops about this I will kill you." Then I said "You need to tell me when I and not drugged because I probably won't remember this." Then Jones said "That's why I'm telling you this now, so you will remember this much later. "(it took 30+ years to remember this event) Then Jones told me they were drugging and gang raping My Wife every day that I went to work, sometimes doing her twice a day.

I asked if they were using condoms and he said they did at first but not anymore since they got bored so they were having a contest to see who could get her pregnant first. Then he walked me into the front room where 5 strange older men were sitting and placed me on the couch. At this time I could not move on my own. I saw more men arrive at the front door and I didn't know them either. I could not move my arms and legs or talk but I could still see and hear.

Then I noticed My Wife was sitting in the big chair like she was watching TV about 10 feet in front of me but she was immobilized. Then Mike Howard came into the room and came up to My Wife and started violently grabbing her breasts and crouch area and pulling at her clothes. Her reflexes were still working since her arms and legs were jerking around rapidly every time he grabbed her breasts. Danny Little came into the room and yelled at him to stop and pointed at me, then Mike Howard looked at me and said what the hell is he doing here?

Then two guys said he is drugged and does not care, so Mike Howard started grabbing My Wife's breasts again. Then Danny little said look at his face, he cares, he is going to remember this, take her in there, don't do that in front of him, don't drug him, Mike Howard said he was not suppose to get drugged. So someone suggested to give me more of the drug to make me forget. Danny Little said it won't matter he is going to remember, so they said give him more anyway so we can continue. Then Jones came running into the room and violently grabbed My Wife's pants and underwear and pulled them off and at the same time pulling her off the chair and onto the floor letting the back of her head slam down on the floor as she slid off of the chair. Then Mike Howard was pulling off her top while Jones pulled on her ankles while she was on the floor. Danny Little was in panic mode at this point screaming at both of them "Do not do that in front of him, he is going to remember."

Jones said "I want him to remember," but Danny Little said "No your an idiot Jones" and grabbed me off of the couch and took me to our bedroom and placed me on our bed. I assume they all gang raped her after that. When I woke up a short time later it seemed like the drug had wore off somewhat but I had no memory of what had just happened. I saw that My Wife was not in bed with me anymore again so I walked into the kitchen. Danny Little stopped me from going into the front room and said you can't go in there. So I headed the other way, toward Jones's Bedroom and he stopped me again and said you can't go in there either, just go back to bed.

They must have had brought in more girls to rape at the same time. Then I woke up again and My Wife was in bed with me and we could not remember anything just like nothing had happened. I learned years later that the Jones Gang used my house to rape over 100 women, they were drugging My Wife and any women they brought over so they could all gang rape them, if a guy showed up to the party with a girl they would drug both of them and gang rape the girl.

I also learned that Jones was drugging My Wife and taking her to other places where more guys were waiting to rape her. He would remove her clothes and walk her around in front of the guys before they all gang raped her.

Now May 2010, I have total recall of this event. This is giving me intense nightmares, I can't stop thinking about it, I can't sleep or eat, I have lost 50 pounds of weight in 4 months. Now when I look at my 18 year old daughter I see Jones raping My Wife and it makes have a panic attack. Here is the link to the drug used, it's no big secret.

The street name of this drug is "Special K" http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ketamine. A lot of organized drug rapers out there still use this very drug and it is more common then ever. People think it can never happen to them, I disagree, you won't even see it coming and you won't know you have been raped. This drug is used by 3% of high school kids in a resent survey done. Get your head out of the sand and be aware that this can happen to you. The rape gangs are even more organized now, they target mostly young attractive women and they know their habits and plan their attacks with precision. If you make it onto their list you will be raped, it is just a matter of time until they get you.

The intended target is code named the "Guest of Honor".

Sharon,

Can spiking result in someone 'flipping out' violently?

Last Saturday I apparently did just that and attacked a doorman. I've never struck out at a person violently in my entire life. I'm 33 years old and have had as much alcohol as I did that night on many previous occasions. I'm waiting to see the CCTV of the allegation. I have no memory of it whatsoever. I was arrested and had a horrendous ordeal in the police station with my clothes being forcibly cut from my body.

My memory of the whole incident is in 'snapshots' with huge slices simply blank. The police report says I was hysterical. And while resisting I allegedly caught a police constable with my foot and am now facing charges of assault on the doorman and the constable too. This is so serious. I also suffered chipped teeth, bruising, cuts and tendon and ligament damage to one of my fingers.

I've never been a person who drinks and forgets things. I've never been in any trouble with the law. I've never even had so much as a point on my licence. I am at a loss to understand what on earth happened. Any info you could give me on drink spiking and could (GHB) make me react this way? Thank you and it would be much appreciated.

Many thanks.

I can't thank you enough for sending me all the info and your book. I had talked to so many people and there were no answers or proof that I had been drugged. But somehow I knew that I was.

So many people don't know about GHB or how it works. Not even the rape crisis center I went to. Your the only one who cleared up the fact that the cognac and coke I was drinking with the foamy top,was spiked with GHB. Unfortuneatly I didn't get to the ER until 24hrs. later when I was finally able to make a decision, did I realize it was too late. My blood and urine came up clean as a whistle, not even alcohol present. The officer who was there, couldn't get a rape team to come to the hospital to test me and suggested I go to the county where it happened. Not knowing my rights and being 12:30 am, I agreed and went in the morning.

I had found a rape crisis center who said they would have the save team come there and do the kit or I could go to the sheriff's department. So I choose the center. They really weren't familiar with the effects of GHB. And in the time that GHB exits the body, the detective said the test would be negative and it takes months to get the results. He also had said with no witnesses, It will come down to he said she said. I am waiting for results from my rape kit test, and if there is more than one seamon found inside me I may stand a chance. Since the incident I have had 3 flashes, 2 which include another person. Of those two a see a face I know, his best friend.

After leaving text messages on my ex's cell about what he had done to me, He did'nt contact me for 2 days. When he finally called me, I was at the rape center consequently waiting to be tested. All he would say is he would never do that to me, or hurt me, and reminded me of all he had done for me in the past. First he said we had sex when I arrived. I reminded him we went to watch music and we would have had sex later. Then when I reminded him that I couldn't find my panties after waking up naked, and he knew where they were. Then he says don't you remember asking him to help take my boots off? I said no. Then he changed his story and said we had sex at that time and I was wide awake.

I don't remember a thing. Including wrecking my car and couldn't find my way home from somewhere I had been so many times before. It took me close to 48 hrs. to feel somewhat normal. My hands had tremors for 5 days. I'm lucky enough This only happened once to me.

My heart truely goes out to you for what you endured. I am so thankful that you shared your story. If it weren't for you calling me back after I hung up. I'd still be a chocolate mess. You gave me advice, educated me, and listened to me balling like a baby. I recieved your package of things yesterday, and as everyone else says, I too could not put your book down, and have already finished reading it.

Thanks again Sharon, God Bless you and your family. PEACE!

I believe my drink was spiked while I was visiting Margaritaville in Las Vegas. I am 50 years old and was with my husband and 2 other couples. After having a couple of drinks, I went to the bar to get a cup to go so I could take my drink that was back at the table with me, since we were getting ready to leave. There were 2 guys about my age sitting at the bar with their bar stools moved far enough apart that someone could easily stand up to the bar.

I mainly remember the guy on my right and he was nice-looking, very flirtatious, and laughed a lot. I think he offered to buy me a drink if I would arm wrestle the bartender. At $8 - $10 a drink, I apparently took him up on it. I don't remember much about my visit at the bar but I remember something about arm wrestling someone. That is the last thing I remember about the evening.

Luckily, I went back to the table after the visit to the bar and we all left as a group about 20 minutes later, as I was told. I was passed out in our hotel room about 20 minutes after we left the bar. I knew when I woke up the next morning, that last drink had to have been spiked. My husband told me the next day that he was so surprised I was so drunk after just a few drinks and agreed something had happened when he found out I had no memory of the evening. If we had stuck around the bar a little longer, I think things may have turned out a lot worse. As I have done a lot of research since then, there are more motives than just rape, such as robbery.

On January 31, 2010 I went with some girlfriends for a birthday at "The Dolphin" (Clackamas Oregon, Exotic dance club) not my first choice of places to go but it wasn't my birthday. About 1/2 way through my 2nd drink I became suddenly very disoriented. I don't remember much other than thinking I needed to get to a doorman or something for help. The next memory I have was being very happy to see Clackamas County police. I said yes when they asked me if I wanted to be arrested because I could not articulate anything that was happening. I spent the night in jail and woke up naked with some kind of velcro robe around me. I had all of the classic symptoms of being drugged, the extreme headache, nausea, memory loss, all of it.

I haven't read the police report so I don't know the whole story but I do know that my legal department spoke with the management at The Dolphin and they are not interested in pressing charges for the trespass, after having the situation explained to them, but the DA is so I am being charged with it.

Eight years ago I was addicted to meth and in 2002 I was convicted on a possession charge from the year before. I have been clean for seven years now and I have really worked hard to get my life back together but in one moment it has been taken from me. I am a senior at Portland State University, I have almost completed my degree in criminal justice with a minor in psychology. My cumulative GPA is a 3.81 with a 4.0 in classes for my major. I have worked extremely hard to get where I am with no help from anyone and I was very proud of myself for turning my life around. I was working towards a career helping other people turn their life around and showing them that it can be done. If I am convicted on this class C misdemeanor I will be unable to have my record expunged and my entire effort at turning my life around will be for nothing.

I know that you cannot do anything about the fact that my life is ruined because of this. What I am asking is, when its too late and you have been drugged, what are you supposed to do?  How is any woman supposed to be safe, if its too late?  We are being taught how to "avoid" the situation and what to do after we have been raped, but what about in between?  I really wish I had simply allowed myself to be victimized. I would have obviously had some emotional issues to cope with but because of the accomplishments I have made in my life, I would have pulled through. Because I did not allow myself to be raped, my life is ruined and everything I have worked for is going to be gone.

Please consider working towards a plan of action. Informing police officers that if a woman is refusing to leave with anyone but you, even if she can't explain why, they should at least ask the questions to help her articulate in case she has been victimized.

Jackie,

Wow what a story... I do believe that if you get a lawyer that understands about "Drink Spiking" you have a GREAT chance of being cleared. I have talked to many lawyers to help come up with a plan of action in your defense. Have yours call me at 616 363 6771 #1 ask for Sharon Jackson.

Jackie, you have come a very long way and don't give up hope now. Choose beliefs that support you, and give you Hope and Energy!

If you would like to call and we can walk through this together... Your not alone in this fight.

Sharon:

Thank you so much for taking so much time talking with me and my husband on the phone the other day. The information and comfort you provided to us both was invaluable. Your strength has given me the strength to speak up against drug facilitated sexual assault and finding your website has been a god send to us. After over three weeks of daily discussions with my husband and family on every detail of that night, I cannot beat myself up anymore and have come to the conclusion I must pass along the valuable information and lessons I have learned. If only I could turn back the clock of time with what I know now.

A couple of very important details were left out of my husband's story about my nightmare (See Dan's story) details that may have saved me had I been aware of drink spiking. The fact that my husband was able to put down in words the crime committed against me, has helped give me the strength to speak out. I have had over 3 weeks to reflect on the events of that evening and know what I have learned could help save someone else from going through anything like this. I had been with a girlfriend earlier in the evening but she had to leave for a family function.

Lesson # 1: When your friend or friends leave, you need to leave also! Never stay or go somewhere by yourself.

The second mistake I made was getting up to go to the bathroom which is lesson # 2 and the most important message here. NEVER leave your drink unattended! If you need to use the bathroom take your drink with you. It is not silly, only smart. I know this is when my drink was first spiked.

The third lesson is never accept a drink from a stranger. I actually had not remembered accepting the drink from the perpetrator until I had a flash almost 2 weeks after the attack leading me to the conclusion my first dose happened when I went to the bathroom and left my glass of wine unattended. A second dose came in the glass of wine brought to me by the predator. This is how they get you engaged in conversation and then those gut instincts we all have are gone.

Another very clear flash is the look on the perpetrators face staring at me as I was consoling the older gentleman about his wife's Alzheimer's. I will never forget the look on his face as if he was saying "She's almost there, time to get her out of here." That look of evil in his eyes will haunt me forever. Hindsight is 20/20 but as you go through the shock and disbelief certain very disturbing memories become clear.

Lesson # 4: To witnesses a victim only appears to be intoxicated and because of this most people would just dismiss the situation has someone having too much to drink. I wish I could say I put up a fight but now know it probably looked like I went willingly with him. A lesson to all of us who has witnessed a situation like this, please get involved and ask questions.

There are still no memories or new flashes in my mind of what happened during the 8 hours after consoling the older man until semi coming to conscious that first time as I was being sexually assaulted. I do remember the confusion I felt, not knowing where I was or how I got there unable to scream, run, call 911 or anything before passing out again. When you tell your story to the police they look and treat you like you are crazy. "Did you call 911 or run out of there" is what you are asked. I can only tell you that you can't do, think or say anything. You are in an utter state of haziness and confusion. I continue to thank god every day that I didn't kill myself or someone else driving home early that morning. I can vaguely visualize myself driving but actually don't remember the drive home. I can only say I think my beloved mother was watching over me which is why I am still alive.

Another part of the torture is constantly asking yourself "What happened to me during all those hours where I have no memory." You will literally drive yourself crazy, unable to work, eat, sleep, concentrate, want to shower or get dressed. It consumes every aspect of your thoughts and makes you question everything you thought you knew about yourself. How could I have been that careless? But as I have learned the hard way we all just live our lives unaware that sexual predators are out there lurking waiting to pounce on some innocent unsuspecting person. People will say to you "Well maybe it's better that you don't remember anything" and I keep telling myself maybe it is better, but the hardest part is that I remember enough.

When someone does something like this to you the rape is only one part of it. What they also take from you is your trust, your spirit and your joy even though you constantly tell yourself "I will not allow him to continue to have power over me." This drugging and subsequent violation is one of the most heinous acts (besides murder) on another human being yet why as victims do we feel such shame and guilt? So much that you can't even bring yourself to tell those close to you. I have to wonder how many victims never say anything because they think they must have drank too much. This coupled with the lack of memory and then what the justice system does to you I can certainly understand why more people do not come forward.

They say one in four women will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime. Drink spiking can happen to anyone. The drugs that predators use not only make you do things that you would never do, but render you completely helpless and are very difficult to prosecute. There are over 1 million registered sex offenders in our country and all too often they are released back into society to strike again due to "lack of evidence."

My father worked tirelessly trying to get this sexual predator back into jail for the second felony committed by failing to register while here in our state. Sad to say I heard from the detective a couple of days ago that he is back in Texas working and living his life, waiting to strike again. I have come to realize, this is what I need to do.get back to living my life having learned the hard way some very valuable lessons I need to share with others and to help heal myself. I also thank god for my family's support during this horrible time. I am so fortunate to have such wonderful people in my life. My husband, my father, my two brothers, great friends and a boss who has been so supportive have helped me tremendously. I realize this is a hard thing for people to handle.

There is a reason I survived this, not only could the drugs have killed me but he could have killed me and dumped my body somewhere leaving my family to wonder what the hell happened to me. We read and hear these kinds of stories on the news all the time. I am so glad I am not just another statistic. I had such a happy life before being targeted and victimized, a life I want back. I have a voice and know I need to help educate the people in my city. If I can help save just one person from going through what I did, this will be my justice.

Stay Aware and Always Watch Your Drink!!

I am a 52 year old professional man happily married to a 48 year old professional woman. My wife recently had an experience which sounds very similar to what happened to Nathan's wife. She stopped at a local bar (about a ½ mile from our home) at 7:30 pm on a Friday night 3 weeks ago. This bar is normally occupied with locals from our city, however on this fateful night there were a couple of guys in there from Texas. She ordered one glass of wine and was talking with an older man (late 60's) about his struggles dealing with his wife who he said has Alzheimer's disease. She was consoling him when another man (early 40's) brought her a glass of wine. Engrossed in her conversation with this older man who by this time was sobbing, she accepted the glass of wine and started drinking it. In hindsight this turned out to be the biggest mistake of her life. While drinking the glass of wine brought to her she felt an intense "rush" which started at her toes and went all the way up to her head. This occurred a little after 8 pm.

The next thing she remembers is semi coming to consciousness lying on her side naked being sexually assaulted in a room by the man who had brought her the drink that night at the bar. She got out of the bed and started searching for her clothes and purse. She remembers putting her clothes on, sitting on the bed and blacked out again. She came to a couple of hours later when he was trying to remove her clothes. She got up, didn't know where she was or how she got there and asked where her purse and car were. The man didn't answer her but left the room and came back with a younger male who he said would take her back to her car. She remembers getting into a white van and was driven back to the bar where she saw her vehicle. She asked him where he was from and he said he was from Texas, here on a job.

Still in a foggy state of mind, she managed to drive the short distance home. She remembers the clock in her car said 7 am. She came into the house and went into my son's bedroom where she passed out again. At 7 am I was actually home in the back yard talking to my son about the fact that she did not come home, neither one of us realizing she had just arrived home. We had been having a little disagreement that week and I foolishly assumed she had spent the night either at her father's or a girlfriend's, even though my wife has never stayed out all night. Around 9:30 am I was sitting in my office when she came around the corner and headed upstairs to our bedroom. Her shoulders were slumped over and she said nothing as I followed her upstairs. I asked her where she had been and she replied "I don't know." I questioned whether she had been at her father's or a girlfriend's home for the night and she just said no. She didn't seem herself so I decided not to push her at that time and she got into her night gown and crawled into bed. She spent all that day sleeping on and off and would not eat anything. I went out and bought her roses and a card and tried talking to her about our disagreement. At around 4 pm she asked me if we could just lay and watch some TV which we did until I fell asleep about 10:30 pm.

My wife says she was up all night trying to piece together the events of the previous evening and came to the conclusion that she was drugged and raped. She woke me up at around 5 am and in a horrifying voice said "Dan something bad happened to me last night and I need to go find a hotel and a white van." I jumped up from bed, we got dressed and she led me to a hotel close to our home. Once in the parking lot she got out of the car and showed me the white van she recognized and said "I came out of one of these rooms." I told her we needed to call the police.

The sheriff took her report and asked if she would do a SARTS exam and if she would be able to identify the man and willing to prosecute. She said yes on all three and we proceeded home where the clothes she wore that evening were bagged and off we went to meet a detective where they would be doing the SARTS exam. After her exam my wife was interviewed by the detective and she gave descriptions of the assailant and the younger man who drove her back to her car. We returned home at about 12 pm, about 45 minutes later the detective called, said he was at the hotel, had both men detained and asked my wife to come down and identify them. I was sick to my stomach as he paraded the predator in front of our car about 15 feet away. My wife identified both men and we watched as the perpetrator was put into a squad car.

The following Tuesday my wife received a call from the detective asking if she could come to the courthouse that afternoon to be interviewed by the DA. After two hours of grilling by the DA we were told that because of all the missing hours where she has no memory, it is a he said/she said situation and he could not take the case at this time. (It takes 4-7 months to get the results from the SARTS test) After the interview I asked the DA and detective VERY strongly "Who is this guy? We know nothing about him, not even his name!!" I was concerned because he had access to my wife's purse for 8 "unknown" hours and I was concerned for my family's safety. Reluctantly he gave us a name and his advice was "Call 911 if you see him." The following day he was released from jail.

At 6 am Thursday morning we received a phone call from my father-in-law telling us that he spent all night on the internet trying to find out some information about my wife's assailant. We were horrified to learn that not only did he have quite a rap sheet, but that he was a nationally registered sex offender for life. My father-in-law spent the next several days making phone calls to the detective demanding that he be re-arrested for failing to register when he arrived in our state. (we did get confirmation that he did not register in our state) This would be another felony he committed in addition to my wife's assault. As of today, he is now listed as absconded (one who goes into hiding to avoid being prosecuted for a crime).

My wife has been very traumatized by this sexual predator and dealing with the Department of Justice. We have learned that the laws protect the criminals more than the victim. She had to take 30 days leave from work and is meeting with a trauma counselor (she found on her own) in addition to actively searching for other individuals who have experienced being drugged and sexually assaulted. My wife is a highly organized professional woman who has run an office for cardiovascular surgeons for over 20 years. She is a loving wife, mother, daughter and sister who did not deserve to be targeted and victimized by this sexual predator. If this could happen to someone like her, it could happen to anyone! We are still trying to come to grips with all of this and finding your web site today was a God send to us. We thought this type of thing only happened to young party girls. This shows our naivety.

I know it would help us tremendously at this terrible time in our lives to speak or communicate with others who share a similar experience. I suddenly did not feel so alone after reading Nathan's story and it motivated me to submit our story. We would welcome any support and/or contact if possible as we try to get through this horrendous time in our lives.

Dan